Nothing 2 Fear Nothing 2 Doubt - Kiss me out of desire, baby, not consolation

It's so hard to say "This is my all-time favorite" and actually mean it. Like, how do you know you're not going to meet, eat, see, wear, hear something better tomorrow? Or next week? Or after Radiohead releases their next album?

I don't even really have a favorite friend because I like them all pretty much the same. I have a core group of people for whom I would die and who would likely take a bullet or maybe a really hard punch for me. But I don't think I have a best best friend. That's a lot of trust and responsibility to instill in someone. That's a lot of work, really.

But if I have a favorite anything, it's this lyric from Jeff Buckley.

"Kiss me. Please kiss me. Kiss me out of desire, baby, not consolation."

It's from the song, Last Goodbye, which I have written about in length. I even put it in my college essay to Cornell. I think they liked it. I know I did.

But anyway, let's discuss at length yet again.

First of all, the bass riff is killer. The echo slide guitar is brilliant. The song is a well-crafted excellently produced masterpiece. And it is eerie in its first line; "This is our last goodbye." It's eerie because Jeff Buckley fucking died shortly after finishing this album. It's as if he knew something bad was on his horizon. A bad moon rising, perhaps.

I don't think Mr. Buckley, an accomplished swimmer, planned to drown in what is not much more than a puddle in a Tennessee river. Nevertheless, he kicked it face down in the water.

But at least he left this pleading line for fans and friends to remember him.

I think this line means so much to me because a). It sounds like something I would say/think/feel and b).it meant so much to Jeff. He sings it in that high octave voice of his at the emotional climax of the song. He paint such a vivid scene with the guitar and his passionate crooning.

For me it's him and the girl he loves. He has come to realization that something has soured between them or they have passed the point of no return and they must decide on eternity together or apart. Who wants to walk away from burning love? Certainly not me, and not Jeff.

But he wants some solace. He wants to know that his love was not in vain. So he wants a kiss. A kiss is one of the most intimate things you can share with someone if you mean it. Anyone can kiss, but when two people choose to kiss each other, a choice made out of love, there is a little bit more than two lips and some spit being exchanged. There is magic, chemistry, hope, what have you. There is something there. And he just wants one last dose of that.

And who wouldn't?

So he's taken her hand, he's got tears in his eyes and she is avoiding his gaze. He just wants one moment of perfection to comfort this inevitable sadness. So she pushes her face to his, but he can tell she's just appeasing his wish, not putting her heart in it.

Here he is, putting his heart on the line, ripping out the cork and pouring everything bottled up inside him out into this kiss, and she's giving him a peck. So he begs.

"Kiss me. Please kiss me. Kiss me out of desire, baby, not consolation."

Go hard or go home. Just be real with me. Make this mean something. Make this count. Make this moment matter. Make a memory. Complete the magic. React to the chemistry. Have a little passion. Please.

So that is probably my favorite quote/lyric/whatev... A man begging for passion at whatever cost. Don't humor me. Care about me. Don't hold back. Don't hold in. Kiss me.

Man, that is fucking intense. I'm getting all worked up about this.

Anyway, I have a lot of emotion going on right now. I have become so emotional lately. I watched that Natalie Portman movie, Where The Heart Is, and I almost cried when: Natalie won that award for the picture of her daughter in the rubble, when Ashley Judd got beat up, and when Natalie told Forney she loved him. That's me, right now, almost crying at cheesey moves that air on Lifetime. LIFETIME! I WAS WATCHING LIFETIME!

O.K. this is going no where, but if there is anything to be read in this, it is to put a little passion in your life. Do something meaningful today or tomorrow. Do something out of desire, not consolation. Don't just go through the motions. Do something seriously serious. Please.